Listen to me, IT DOESN'T MATTER. It doesn't matter if anyone likes you or not. Stop locking your eyes on this problem fgs. I know you are overwhelmed, but it really does not matter, Jed. It doesn't even matter if he wants to marry you or not. Who cares. He's not the answer. No man is.
Listen to me. NO WORLDLY DESIRE IS WORTH THE GARDEN OF JANNAH.
I know you are hurt, in fact, very hurt from everything that has happened in your life. But girl, we are doing good with Allah's will. Dia tak pernah tak protect kita. Please jangan menzalimi diri kita dah.
I know you long for a male figure in your life who will finally make you feel safe and you can let your guard down. I know the armour is heavy, so heavy it shivers your knees you can barely stand. And the attack has been very severe. But this is your test, that Allah has specifically designed for you, moulded to your capacity, and assisted for you to pass.
And passing doesn't mean you will finally get what you always wanted in this world. Passing the test could mean you finally die, meeting Him in a condition that your desire was never destined to be fulfilled but you have tried your best to avoid major sins. Even if you did fall into them, you never gave up returning to Him troughout your life.
Zalika hual fadhlul kaabir.
I am genuinely scared ya Allah. Please help me. Tolonglah aku. Peganglah aku ya Allah.
They are attacking from all sides, and I am faqiir. Very needy of You. I could not do this alone. I need Your backup. I am very weak, sangat cacat cela cinta aku pada Engkau Ya Allah. I can feel that they are sending over their best corporals to whisper to me and it is full blown now that Ramadan is coming. Compang camping aku datang merayu pada Engkau Tuhan Sekalian Alam, ya Allah. Yang tidak pernah sekali pun tidak mengasihi aku.
This could be lifelong, jed. We never know. Brace yourself and get up. They are destroying your bridge to get to that Jannah and you just gonna watch? You not gonna run to Allah for help?
Put that freakin armour back on, the war is not over.
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