Didn't realise I haven't been posting. It's the last day of November 2024. Tomorrow is the final month of this year. Actually it's less than an hour from now.
Let's talk for a while. Just us embracing the flaws and owning the humane sides of our writing without CG. (Don't get me wrong, he's a great buddy in this fast-paced world)
Anyway. Let's slow down and pause.
I love how you have been practicing gratitude in your best days and the hard ones. I'm not sure why we haven't been writing? But we did not entirely disconnect either. We kinda talked a lot in the shower (as if we shower consistently LOL HAHA~). But yeah, just really busy with assignments dateline, and then we crashed afterwards ever since the 12th which was like 2+ weeks ago. Hard days commuting to school, very very exhausting. Alhamdulillah for the safety and protection from Allah. Even on the days that we felt it was impossible to go to work (not in a emotionally depressed way? more like exhaustion of commuting and thinking about lessons), we eventually made it every time. Allah has decreed His knowledge to reach our students, and its their provision by Allah's will. We are honoured to be chosen as the intermediary of this greater purpose.
Teaching was really fulfilling these days. We started to get hold of the routine with Year 9B and conduct Tadabbur time with them. Kids look like they've been taking things seriously. Just need to look after Adyan more after this, and of course work on our lesson planning. I actually have something that I wanna try doing in the future, probably starting during Ramadan soon. I always want to slowly bring the girls to hijab, maybe starting with asking them to wear/bring long skirts every Monday and Friday and wear shawl everytime we do our Tadabbur. Maybe I'll give them the flexibility of choosing to wear it or not during the entire lessons. Maybe I'll come out with a cute invitation card for them and words of encouragements.
I am not sure yet but I know Allah will guide me through inshaAllah.
Ah, let's also talk about our effort in reducing unnecessary screentime. It's a good time to reflect now. Mainly there are two reasons why we uninstalled our social media platforms:
1- to stay away from illness of the heart towards our dearest friends, in searching for a peaceful life and less triggers
2- to spend more time with ourselves, get more creative with hobbies, reduce stimulations and addiction, and be more discipline.
Good job on the first goal, I think we're doing well. However, you have to be more cautious with talbis iblees manipulating you from working on goal #2. There is no use if you keep on scrolling LinkedIn and YouTube videos in Browser and now use them as a part of your freeze response. Don't act like we don't know, because we are clearly aware. You can't keep running from the distractions and hope to be well-disciplined. Hate to break it to you, but you have to practice more of self-control in facing these. It's very essential. You have a whole world in front of you. Get to it. Write that lyrics book. Plan that business. You got this, girl.
Lastly, reminder on when we learned An-Naba' during the last usrah gathering, when Allah tells us the punishments of hellfire is well-deserved based on what the transgressors did in the world.
Setimpal. Bukan berlebihan. "Tapi kalau kita fikir balik balasan syurga pula sebaliknya, Allah bagi berlebih-lebih sangat. Macam, kita buat apa je nak deserve those kind of rewards" - Zura.
But that's Allah, our Lord. His mercy and love is beyond our imagination and reasoning. Also brought me back to when sister Yasmin smiled on the stage where she sat during her lecture and said, "Never once when Allah gives hardship, He only gives the hardship. Never. There is always ease coming together".
Ya zaljalali wal ikram. Rabbana zhalamna anfusana, wa illam taghfirlana watarhamna, lanakuunanna minal khaasirin.
May Allah continue to bestow His taufiq and hidayah to us, to fight our own nafs and the whispers of the devils. We are so so weak. Very weak. Very needy.
"It's not worth it if it costs you your place in Jannah."
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And which of the favour of your Lord would you deny?
Alhamdulillah, we have signed the agreement for our housing loan. Another bits of aafiyah bestowed from Him. And that's for another post. I think it's very important to jot the journey down so I can cherish the smooth sailing.
Also, leaving to Makkah in another 3 weeks inshaAllah!
Thank you Allah for all the small pitstops in this dunya.
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