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Unofficially 30 :) Umrah trip felt like a beautiful dream I wish I was not awaken from. January started off a bit harsh. A lot of resolution, but kinda clueless on how to.... 

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How to....?

That was supposed to be my so-called New Year Resolution post lolz. Guess what. It's February 2025, and man, by the grace of Allah already so many good things happened! Alhamdulillah. 

We should have a different post just for our gratitude, and then our little home journey. But I want to be able to let go of the perfection and expectations towards myself, of wanting a perfect writing vibe whatsoever because ain't no way real life is like that. Gotta stay on the ground and focus on the objective of journaling at the first place. To dump, right? Sometimes you get an inspiring main character moment when you can arrange your thoughts beautifully, but some days when it's messy, it's okay. It has it's own beauty in it. The beauty of us showing up for ourselves even on days we have no idea what the hell is going on or where to start. 

So, we finally moved in the new house alhamdulillah!! Let's be excited and proud for this. Allah has made it easy. Like, literally, He has blessed me in every step I'm not exaggerating at all subhanallah. Starting from the house viewing last August. You know what, let me actually draw the timeline.

I'll post that later. Talking about perfectionism uhh 😂

Anyway, school is just 5 minutes away, and I can leave house at 730am can you imagine that? Qadarullahu ma sha'a fa'aluh :) All because of who He is, nothing about me at all. And for that, I am forever grateful. It's a bit weird, having to do things on my own now that Ummi is not around to baby me anymore. I would need some time to adapt, and imma giving myself that. Today I cooked rice, like for the first time in two years and I have mixed feeling about that. Realising that I have managed to stand on my own feet and how far I have come, it's bittersweet. 

I have my own house you guys! Praise be to Allah. 

This post is supposed to be published on 13th Feb.